My mind is racing and my thought traps are pouring in. I no longer feel safe in my physical home as it becomes a breeding ground for my bad thoughts. As I recognize that, I know what I have to do - I need to find safety. I need run.
I put my armor on and lace up to bear the conditions of the outside world. Rain, snow, heat, cold - I will face whatever is out there much like USPS. My heart rate increases and then I slowly begin to win the battle in my mind. As I am running and fighting against my thoughts - I return home. I return to my body. I become zen with myself.
Once I am home, I can truly experience the world in ways I couldn’t when I was in battle. I get to discover stories, see the beauty of the world, and see the creativity that lives all around me. I run to discover and I run to return home.
To me, running is safe. Running is a place where bad thoughts disappear and creativity is born. The beautiful thing about running is I can bring it anywhere with me. No matter how far away I am from my physical home, I can always run home because running is home.
*October 19th, 2022 - post FRNY Fun Run